All That Matters

by Darryl Rahn

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released October 6, 2015

Thank you to everyone who made this album possible. (especially you, mom and dad)

words and music by Darryl Rahn
produced by Joshua Pleeter and Darryl Rahn
engineered, and mixed by Joshua Pleeter @ Crooked Smile Studios (Rockland County, NY)
mastered by Silas Brown @ Legacy Sound (New Rochelle, NY)
*vocals, electric guitar (track 1, 2, 5, 7, 9, 11), drums (track 9), aux percussion (track 9), gang vocals (track 9) engineered by Zeno Pittarelli @ Big Blue North (Utica, NY)
*female vocals engineered by James McDowell @ Bradley Brook Studios (Eaton, NY)
*electric guitar (track 3), electric slide guitar engineered by Seth Nathan @ home

Darryl Rahn: lead vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, electric slide guitar, drums (track 9), aux percussion (track 9), harmonica
Joe Beerman: electric bass, upright bass
Brian Kenney: drums (track 1, 5, 6, 7, 11), aux percussion (track 5)
Mason McDowell: piano, gang vocals (track 11), claps (track 7)
Hannah Lee Thompson: banjo, gang vocals (track 11), claps (track 7)
Sara Donnellan: female vocals
Jordan Tetewsky: violin
Zane West: drums (track 2)
Ava Rae Heatley: gang vocals (track 11), claps (track 7)
Seth Nathan: gang vocals (track 9), claps (track 9)
Zeno Pittarelli: gang vocals (track 9), claps (track 9)

artwork photography by Matteo Prokosch @ prokoschphotography.com
artwork design by Darryl Rahn
artwork design assistance by Iris Rogers @ facebook.com/IrisRogersPhotography

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Track Name: Highway Song
I’ve been driving on this highway for a while
Another hundred miles doesn’t matter much to me
There's nothing left here but the sunset to my right
But I won’t sleep tonight, no I’ll just dream

I can’t remember what it’s like to be back home
Here out on my own's a losing game
Without my mother, my father or my brother
My sister, well I’ve missed her just the same

Where I’m living now
No one knows my name

Mama I’m lost, Mama I’m scared
Now that I’m free I’m going nowhere
Some things I will never understand
Gimme a reason, send me a sign
That all this dreamin’ ain’t a waste of time
Cuz nothing’s going quite like I planned
Guess I’m learning what it means to be a man

I’ve been driving on this highway for too long
Maybe I was wrong but it’s too late for turning back
A different chapter with the same old story line
I nearly lose my mind every time

See, I barely even started
I’m already heavy-hearted

Mama I’m lost, Mama I’m scared
Now that I’m free I’m going nowhere
Some things I will never understand
Gimme a reason, send me a sign
That all this dreamin’ ain’t a waste of time
Cuz nothing’s going quite like I planned
Guess I’m learning what it means to be a man

But one day I will find my way
Long as the sun keeps rising tomorrow
And yesterday will fade away
Soon as I learn to shake off my shadow
But right now it just won’t let me go

Mama I’m lost, Mama I’m scared
Now that I’m free I’m going nowhere
Some things I will never understand
Gimme a reason, send me a sign
That all this dreamin’ ain’t a waste of time
Cuz nothing’s going quite like I planned

Mama I'm scared, Mama I'm lost
Now that I'm free I'm paying the cost
With nothing here to hold by own hand
Gimme my reason, gimme my rhyme
Was all that dreamin' a waste of my time?
'Cause nothing's going quite like I had planned
I guess I'm ready as I'll never be to find out what it means to be a man
Track Name: Caroline In The Summertime
Caroline is the sweetest thing
Wears a diamond ring on her finger
Born and raised in a one horse town
I think I’ve found the one

Here we are sitting side by side
On this evening ride in my two-door
Chasing sunsets and fireflies
Under open skies, who could ask for more?

Oooo, I’m sure
She’s the one I’ve been waiting for

And I fell so fast
Under that spell she cast
I could tell this would last
From the first line
Me and Caroline in the summertime

Caroline drinks her coffee black
Wears her hair tied back in the morning
Where she’s headed, well no one knows
'Cause she comes and goes without warning

But Oooo, that’s all right
She keeps me warm through the lonely night, Oh

And I fell so fast
Under that spell she cast
I could tell this would last
From the first line
Just me and Caroline in the summertime
Me and Caroline in the summertime

But it won’t be forever, I know
Soon the green that we see will be covered with snow
And the promises we’ve made
Will be carried away in the arms of the shade
So before that twilight’s glow
We will try to take it slow

And I fell so fast
Under that spell she cast
I could tell this would last
From the first line
Just me and Caroline in the summertime
Me and Caroline in the summertime
Me and Caroline in the summertime
Track Name: Scattered Love (feat. Sara Donnellan)
Late September, leaves like embers on the ground
But it’s such a shame when the final flame of summer has burned out
You said: “babe, I just can’t be what you want me to be”
Oh, but don’t you get it? Any way you were was fine with me

No, your heart was never honest
Your mind was always scattered
But I loved you and that’s all that mattered

When I was open, (I) you would go and close the door
You left me always hoping you would say a little something more
But despite our differences I never wanted you to run away
All I ever wanted was everything we had to stay the same

Though your heart was never honest
And your mind was always scattered
‘Cause I loved you and that’s all that mattered

Now I feel a phantom pain when I remember June
I knew one day it all would change, just never knew how soon
How soon

Your heart was never honest
Your mind was always scattered
But I loved you, and that’s all that mattered
And I still love you, but that don’t even matter
Track Name: Park Avenue
As I watch you walk away
My head is deep in disarray
I’d love to know where I went wrong
I blinked and now my baby’s gone

You said you loved the thought of me
But not the real man you see
I lied and said; “I understand”
As the rain fell through the cracks of my hands

How’d it take so long to see?
You were never right for me
I gave away my heart and soul
In return for skin and bones
You were my rock, but I was just your steppin' stone

I locked away my love for you
Thought of no one else but you
Spent seven months up on the shelf
While you ran off with someone else

And though I know he’s not to blame
It hurts me just to hear his name
And though I hope he treats you well
I sure would like to give him hell

How’d it take so long to see?
You were never right for me
I gave away my heart and soul
In return for skin and bones
You were my rock, but I was just your steppin' stone

Honesty will set you free
You were never right for me
I gave away my heart and soul
In return for skin and bones
And got left alone
You were my rock and I was just your steppin' stone
I was just your steppin' stone
Track Name: Lost Souls
Hannah Lee had a spirit so free
Never had a clue of who she wanted to be
She spent all of her time down by the railroad getting high
Little did she know, the days turn into years gone by
Never thought she’d get this far behind

Now she’s sleeping with a stranger in the Sunny Side Motel
One of many dangers in those chemicals she sells
And though none of it is real when that needle’s in her veins
Bruises never heal if you always hide the pain

Hannah, get your head out of the sand
Don’t you know the rest is in your hands?

And it’s a long way down
For all the lost souls that never get found
And just hang around this town
Forever nowhere bound

Oh, and Tommy had a future as bright as the sun
'Fore that fateful night when he pulled that gun
Seven years they locked his sorry ass away
Now his lesson has been learned but that won’t change yesterday
Never knew how far a man could fall

Now he walks these streets alone; no one looks him in the eye
The place he once called home is just a house he passes by
When he robbed that man for money, well he robbed himself for life
Now his best friend is a lawyer with a baby and a wife

All the things he might never be
But Tommy, that’s your fight now that you’re free
Don’t you see?

That it’s a long way down
For all the lost souls that never get found
And just hang around this town
Forever nowhere bound

All standing in the rain
Waiting all their lives
For a runaway train
That will never arrive
Oooo
Oooo
Oooo

All the reckless kids who never knew
One day it will all catch up to you, it’s true

And it’s a long way down
For all the lost souls that never get found
And just hang around this town
Forever nowhere bound
Track Name: Don't Wait For Me
Who am I to say our story’s over?
When in truth it never quite began
I’ve been on the fence with my cold shoulder
While you’ve been on the ground trying your best to understand

In our drunkenness we held each other
Then I made a promise I can’t keep
Woke up safe and warm beneath your covers
And that was when I knew that I was in too deep

So here’s the truth, my dear
Not what you want to hear

Don’t you wait for me
I will never give you what you need
You’d end up hating me
With all your grief and disappointment, guaranteed
So please don’t wait for me

How come every time I find what I’ve been chasing after?
I change my mind and throw it all away
You’re everything that I could ever ask for
So I’m too scared to settle down and let that feeling stay

And you say; “take your time”
With all your faith in a fake horizon line

Don’t you wait for me
I will never give you what you need
You’d end up hating me
With all your grief and disappointment, guaranteed
So please don’t wait for me

But it’s so selfish, I know, I still have yet to let you go
Even though I don’t want you
but it’s just ‘cause I’m afraid I’ll see the mistake I’ve made and want to be
In your arms after you’ve found somebody new

Don’t you wait for me
I will never give you what you need
You’ll end up hating me
Only grief and disappointment, guaranteed
So please don’t wait for me
Track Name: Jealous Eyes (Gone For Good)
Sarah races to her car and drives into the night
Trying her best to hold her tears inside
She doesn’t know where she is going
Just knows she can’t stay here

‘Cause he went overboard again, drunk and insecure
Cursing out her name and slamming doors
Accusing her for things she didn’t do
Fiction based on fear
By now it’s clear that he was

Out of his mind, might as well have been blind
Seeing only what he wanted to see through his

Jealous eyes. Jealous eyes
And she said
He’d be sorry that he never understood, never loved her like he could
And now she’s gone, and she is gone for good

They fell in love at seventeen, a picture perfect memory
When he was kind and she was free like all good lovers ought to be
But time would tell the truth beneath
The smile he once wore
But won’t anymore

He was out of his mind, might as well have been blind
Seeing only what he wanted to see through his

Jealous eyes. Jealous eyes
And she said
He’d be sorry that he never understood, never loved her like he could
And now she’s gone, and she is gone for good

Oooo, Oooo
She is gone for good
Oooo, Oooo
She is gone for good
Oooo, Oooo, Oooo, Oooo

'Cause Sarah found his .45, can she really be to blame?
He cried for mercy but she killed him just the same
One can only handle so much pain
Before a lesson’s learned

Jealous eyes
and she's just sorry that he never understood
Never loved her like he could
'Cause now he's gone, and he is gone for good
Track Name: Brother
I know we don’t talk too much these days
But I’ve got a couple things I need to say
Like I miss you and I need you and I hope that you’re ok
But most of all, I’m sorry

I’m sorry that I had to say goodbye
Before you even started Junior High
I’m sorry for the cursing and the times I made you cry
I never meant to hurt you

And I know I’ve always been too hard on you
When I should’ve put myself inside your shoes
‘Cause I’ve walked those very roads before
Made the same mistakes and more
Still I hope it’s me you will turn to

‘Cause we both know it’s been killing Mom and Dad
To see us treat eachother so damn bad
But even though you drive me mad, love is all I’ve ever had for you
And that’ll never change
That’ll never change
No, that’ll never change

Oooo
Brother, can’t you see?
Oooo
I am you are me

And regardless of how different we may seem
Six years and a few inches between
One day you will know just what I mean when I say
I am you
I am you are me

I know we don’t talk too much these days
But I’ve got a couple things I need to say
I miss you. I need you. I hope that you’re ok.
And I’m sorry.
Track Name: She's My Baby
She’s got hair black as night and skin white as snow
Big brown eyes and a ring on her nose
The prettiest sight from her head to her toes
She’s my baby and I can’t let her go

But she’ll dance ‘round the truth so you don’t realize
She treats you so cruel, some kind of devil in disguise
But I’ll be the fool buying all of her lies
Cuz she’s my baby, and I can’t say goodbye
Yeah she’s my baby and I can’t say goodbye

And now all of my friends say “she’s no good for you”
And I might just be a little filthy hypocrite ‘cause I admit it might be true
But inside my shoes, tell me, what would you do?
She’s my baby despite the hell she puts me through
She’s my baby despite the hell she puts me through

But one of these days I’m gonna take a stand
Then I’ll make my own messes and make my own plans
Aw, but she’ll have my heart running back on command
To break once again just ‘cause she knows she can
She’s my baby but I ain’t her man
She’s my baby but I ain’t her man
She’s my baby but I ain’t her man
Track Name: Parachute
August rolled in like a hurricane
And I quickly fell victim to its thunder and its rain
When you told me that your lovin' was true

There we lied until the sun could hide no more
And I woke up with a tenderness I’d never felt before
A kind of feeling that I now wish I never knew

So I’ll tell myself you'll call
Though I know it isn’t true
Your hearts too busy building walls
A guy like me just can’t break through
But I know I’ll be a better man when I survive this fall
I just need someone to be my parachute

Honestly, am I supposed to pretend
You and I can still be friends after everywhere we’ve been?
Let’s be real, I can’t deal with that

My old man tells me it isn’t worth the fight
Well the wiser half of me must admit that he is right
But the other half is staring at your photograph

I still tell myself you'll call
Though it simply isn’t true
Your heart's too busy building walls
A guy like me just can’t break through
But I know I’ll be a better man when I survive this fall
I just need someone to be my parachute
Oh, won’t someone come and be my parachute?

So I will try and say it’s better off this way
Though my heart and my head will never be on the same page
Cause I know something was missing back when I was kissing you

And I won’t wait here for your call
The foolish way I used to do
Go ahead and build your walls
Just don’t expect to see me soon
Cause I know I’ll be a better man when I survive this fall
And your memory will be my parachute
Your memory will be my parachute
Track Name: Heart On Hold
Maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
Let my head unfold for a little
Put my heart on hold for a little while

Yeah, maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
Let my head unfold for a little
Put my heart on hold for a little while

Well it’s been a long year to say the least
Don't know how I made it through
For every high I had ten times the low
For chasing the mistakes I can’t undo

So maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
Let my head unfold for a little
Put my heart on hold for a little while

We fell in love so fast, but so fast it fell apart
And I wish I never let her get away
But maybe I’m better for the words I didn’t say
Maybe it still hurts, maybe that’s OK

Maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
Let my head unfold for a little
Put my heart on hold for a little while

Yeah, maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
Let my head unfold for a little
Put my heart on hold for a little while

Maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
(I'll put my heart on hold)
Let my head unfold for a little
(I'll let my head unfold)
Put my heart on hold for a little while
(I'll put my heart on hold)

Maybe I’ll just put my heart on hold for a little
Let my head unfold for a little
Put my heart on hold for a little while
Track Name: Who's At The Wheel
It’s getting hard to read the news
Another man wrongly accused
By some coward whose power’s been misused
It’s getting hard to read the news

And it’s been hard to sleep at night
Another day, another fight
To think I’m safe simply because my skin is white
It’s been hard to sleep at night

And all I want to know is

Who’s at the wheel of this wrecking machine?
Spinning out of control and gaining speed
‘Cause I can’t tell the real apart from bad dreams
If everything’s exactly as it seems
Honestly, I don’t know what to believe

It’s getting hard to read the news
Another kid stolen and abused
I tried to put myself inside her mother’s shoes
It’s getting hard to read the news

When all I want to know is

Who’s at the wheel of this wrecking machine?
Spinning out of control and gaining speed
‘Cause I can’t tell the real apart from bad dreams
If everything’s exactly as it seems
Honestly, I don’t know what to believe
Honestly, I don’t know

How all the wars keeps raging over things we can’t explain
The biggest word can’t cover up a lie
The plans will keep on changing but the truth it will remain
A man deserves to live before he dies

Honestly I don’t know what to believe
Honestly, I don’t know